I Am The Mermaid Queen Of Lemuria
Past Life Regression with Aaron Clippenger
Esalen ~ Big Sur, CA • January 2018
I’m at Esalen for a month-long songwriting program to take some personal retreat time and make peace with my father’s death. I’m lying on the floor in Porter’s Yurt listening to the ocean and the calm tones of Aaron’s voice as he guides a small group of us into a gentle hypnotic state for a past life regression. Here we go!
I’m walking down a staircase that wraps around the edge of a seaside cliff. The air is cold and foggy. At the bottom of the stairs is a heavy wooden door with iron hinges, gothic. There is no doorknob or handle. As I approach, the door opens, and I am flooded with aquamarine light. I think, this can’t be right, this looks like it’s underwater. I begin to turn away, but I feel something pulling me back, so I take another look, and I think, I can’t go in there, I can’t breathe under water. But then something urges me through the doorway and suddenly I am in an underwater world. Aaron tells us to look down at our body and accept whatever we see without judgment.
I look down and see that I have a long, curvaceous, iridescent tail. My breasts and hair are decorated with shells and beads. I have the strong knowing that I am a mermaid. And not just any mermaid, I am the Mermaid Queen of Lemuria. Lemuria was the ancient mythological sister-city of Atlantis. I am sitting on a throne next to my husband, Poseidon, the MerKing, who carries a glowing golden trident. I am not that surprised because I have always felt an affinity with mermaids, but I am amazed at how clear and detailed my experience is.
Poseidon and I are seemingly happy as we keep peace in our underwater world, but I’m aware of a deep sadness in myself that has rotted into an anger that keeps me from opening my heart to my husband. The issue is that Poseidon is fucking all the mergirls, and I don’t like it. I want him to be monogamous, but I don’t know that I have permission ask because it’s always been this way with the MerPeople. So I’ve lived with my hurt, sucking in my feelings, and keeping Poseidon at a chilly distance for eons. It has caused both of us much pain.
Because I am now both the Mermaid Queen in my regression and myself as witness in the present, I have a dual perspective, and I know I have the opportunity to make a different choice that will positively affect both my waterworld and my own present life. So I simply and courageously turn to Poseidon and ask him: Can we please monogamous, my husband? And with eyebrows lifted in surprise and care, he says: Yes, my Queen, anything you wish, but how will I keep the mergirls happy? We think about this for awhile and finally, together, we invent the seahorses, all of whom, are hung.
In this moment I know I have changed both the lineage of the MerPeople from a patriarchal to a matriarchal reign and healed some of the relationship trauma in my own life. My hurt and anger is dissolved and our marriage becomes a refuge and a celebration. We love each other deeply and share a rich, sensual, and meaningful life. I give birth to a beautiful merchild, Oceana, who is healthy and beaming and sings the whole day long, playing and making friends with even the most reclusive of our sea creature family.
I wear silver rings on each of my thumbs and gold rings on each of my pinkies, and Poseidon wears the same, only on the opposite fingers, gold rings on his thumbs and silver on his pinkies. When we touch the palms of our hands together, with our fingers spread wide, the silver and gold rings meet and synergize in vibrational tones that resonate throughout the entire underwater world. Through these tones we are able to summon any creature, elicit their help, alert them to danger, or call them to gather.
Poseidon and I are bonded in love for life. We have an energetic bond in the form of an infinity symbol ∞ that connects our hearts to each other with a particular tonal vibration that has encoded within it our personal tonal signatures and a melody that represents our love for each other and that we each recognize and respond to as love.
Everything in our world undulates, our tails, the seaweed and seaflowers, all the creatures of the sea undulate, keeping the gates of their pelvises, necks, and spines open and fluid, lithe and responsive. It isn’t so much that we were moving, but that the natural tides of the ocean moves through us unhindered. The infinity sign is our family crest, a symbol of endless flow.
We govern our underwater world for over 300 years. We were happy and thriving. We have created a peaceful Oceana in the time of our reign, but we were growing old. At 300, we both have long white hair, beautifully wrinkled faces, wise and lively eyes. But the time comes when we are ready to die. We make a conscious choice to leave our bodies. Right before we die, we sit together in meditation, and a warm red-orange light hums between our hearts, connecting us forever throughout eternity. We know we will always be able to find each other by singing the melody that connects our hearts.
The sea creatures dig a shallow grave in the bottom of the ocean floor and we are buried with our hands clasped together, rings touching. Our bodies slowly disintegrate into the water and the pieces of our flesh become part of the sea and the creatures take us into their own bodies as they breathe and eat, and in this way, we live on.
This was a truly beautiful and empowering experience for me. The images and details were extremely vivid, beyond anything I imagined possible. I was so engaged in the experience that I found myself crying at times from the depth of love I felt. I came away from this regression feeling fortified and whole, healed and hopeful. It rekindled my faith that I will, in this life, meet my beloved with whom I will share a rich and powerful love. Since this experience, I carry my head higher and my heart warmer. My faith has been revived. I am no longer afraid of my own power, rather, I claim it. I ask for what I want. I know I am a magical being. A lot of the sadness I have carried my life due to destructive relationships has lifted. I know I am worthy of a true love. And as a singer/songwriter, I believe in the power of music to heal and connect us. I keep singing.
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